I swear I didn’t.
Everything has been so complicated recently within my relationship. Last night I found out that Mozart read my blog. You may not think this is a big deal (especially since I put it out online for everyone to read) but the thing is that he promised last week that he wouldn’t read my blog unless I said that it would be okay. Stirs is supposed I be a place where I can go and feel comfortable instead of a place where I feel like I have to alter my feelings because of fear. Plus, it showed me that he is insecure about our relationship. I told him before he wants to know how I am feeling then he should just ask me. Or hell I have a loud enough mouth….just listen to what I am saying. Not only did He go behind my back and read but he also lied about it. I asked him three different times, kept giving him chances but he didnt own up to it. It wasn’t until I told him that I wouldn’t be mad at him as much if he just told me the truth. Which is when everything came out. I mean at least he eventually came clean, right? In a way this makes me trust him a lot less. I am already horrible about trusting people. And for some reason I feel like if he can find it this easy to lie straight to my face, then nothing will change when he is the lie is something bigger. Maybe it’s just my silly mind, but it makes me worried.
Not only are we dealing with that, but there is still the erection problem. We still have not had sex. He says there is all this pressure on him now which makes him unable to perform. And whilst that may be true, this whole situation is driving me crazy. And I keep wondering if it is my issue. My problem. In any factor the longer it keeps going the more that I think that it is my fault. Which is hard to deal with.